Sad ;_;

[duare]

Today is the second day of the week that I've arrived home crying my eyes out. I don't understand it, one minute I'm ok, and the next I feel sad and lonely, and the only thing I want is to come back home.
And it's not a problem about jobs... Because now I'm working a lot of hours meanwhile I look for a full time job, and I have enough money to pay the next month of the rent... It's just... that I miss my parents so much... Specially my mother, god! I miss her a lot, it hurts to be so far from her... And I feel very lonely... I know I have friends here, but this feeling about being alone it's with me everyday.

I don't know... My mother's told me to do what I feel is better for me. And I want to stay here, but at the same time I want to come back. And maybe tomorrow I'll see the things different, but for now that's how I feel.
But if this breaking down points come more, with less time betwen them, I dont know what I'm going to do... because it's fucking horrible to feel like that every day (and I feel like that everyday, I just only cry one or two times a week, at the moment...)

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[duare.livejournal.com]

No te sientas mal^^ Más que nada porque por regla general si hago algo es porque yo quiero, independientemente de lo que me digan o aconsejen los demás.
Así que tú tranquilo, que si no he vuelto a Barcelona es porque no quiero. Al menos no por el momento, pero como ya te he dicho por msn, me vuelvo al terminar el verano.
No está mal, habré tenido mi medio año de aventura, y London va estar siempre aquí.

Besos!