Sad ;_;

[duare]

Today is the second day of the week that I've arrived home crying my eyes out. I don't understand it, one minute I'm ok, and the next I feel sad and lonely, and the only thing I want is to come back home.
And it's not a problem about jobs... Because now I'm working a lot of hours meanwhile I look for a full time job, and I have enough money to pay the next month of the rent... It's just... that I miss my parents so much... Specially my mother, god! I miss her a lot, it hurts to be so far from her... And I feel very lonely... I know I have friends here, but this feeling about being alone it's with me everyday.

I don't know... My mother's told me to do what I feel is better for me. And I want to stay here, but at the same time I want to come back. And maybe tomorrow I'll see the things different, but for now that's how I feel.
But if this breaking down points come more, with less time betwen them, I dont know what I'm going to do... because it's fucking horrible to feel like that every day (and I feel like that everyday, I just only cry one or two times a week, at the moment...)